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Updated 11/08 [M 54] When I was in my early 30's, I had a relationship with a gay friend that lasted several years that I thoroughly enjoyed. I was also dating women, and ultimately my wife to be, and considered myself to be bisexual. One night I would be sucking my gay friend cock, and the next I would be eating some pussy. It was one of the busier and more sexually satisfying times of my life. We continued to get together regularly into my first year of marriage until he passed away unexpectedly. That ended my gay side for a while.
After several years of marriage, things inevitably slowed down somewhat, as others in this forum have experienced. Also, I missed having sex with a man, and in particular, sucking cock. My wife is very accomplished in this act, so I'm usually satisfied in terms of having this done to me.
My first experience in many years was a very hot encounter in a hotel room on a business trip a few years ago. Before my trip I was in some chat rooms looking for a connection in the city I would be visiting figuring a hook up on the road would make discretion easier to maintain. I was in a bisexual chat room, and connected with a black male with a dom side which was a real turn on. He had a thing for white married sub type of guys, which I definitely am, so we hit it off and chatted for a while. I confided in him that I had a fantasy or desire to get down on my knees and suck a cock. He was definitely interested in helping me fulfill that need. I told him my travel plans, and the hotel I was staying at while I was there, we exchanged cell numbers, and agreed to hook up. The first night I was in town he played a little hard to get, and we did not connect. The next night he agreed to come out the hotel I was staying at and we met in the bar after I got back from my client for drinks and food. Anyway, after some conversation and a drink or two I realized I was totally turned on and smitten by this man. He was attractive and intelligent, and all I could think of was “I hope he’ll let me suck his cock, he is so fucking hot.” I was ready to be a slut, I just needed a little "romance" before.
So, after drinks, conversation (about how I got into men, I told him about my experience with my gay friend) and food, he says, “Are you ready?” and I nervously whimpered “Yes,” and we headed back to my room. We enter the room, and he closed the door behind us and chain locked it. Now, I’m incredibly excited and somewhat nervous at the same time. We go to the back of the hotel room, and he directs me to get on my knees. He unbuckles his belt, unfastens his pants, drops his pants and his briefs down to his knees, and hangs his cock in front of my face. His cock was gorgeous, big enough and perfect for sucking. I take it in my mouth, applied an “air tight seal” and proceed to give him the best hands free blow job I possibly could. I was moaning the whole time, and trying my best to deep throat him. I sucked him intensely, loving every sleazy second of it. The whole time I was sucking him, he was telling me I was his “little white bitch boi” and his “cocksucking slut.” That only made me suck him more intensely. I closed my eyes, and I was truly loving every sleazy submissive second of this encounter. I was rewarded with a nice load of his cum, which I swallowed hungrily like it was my last meal. I got up, and we chatted some before he left. I told him that I wanted him to fuck me in the ass, and he was interested for sure. He gave me a very deep passionate kiss as he was leaving. I didn’t get back to the area for some time, and he had moved away.
After he left, I went online and told the story to a female chat buddy I had at the time. She thought it was a pretty hot encounter. Then I retired for the evening, and jerked myself off for my own satisfaction.
Since then, I've had a few other encounters during my business travels. Usually with other married men that enjoy gay sex, or are interested in trying it for the first time. Married men looking to hook up with other men tend to get a lot of responses on Craigslist or other places. I had another encounter with a man whose wife wouldn't suck his cock, all he wanted to know what a good blow job felt like.
When I was finished, he knew.
Updated 9/08 [M] I really enjoyed, the article, "Adult Onset Gayness", and wanted to share what gayness has meant to me. (I wish I had never been afraid of it; although, a good life, I feel my life would have been more fulfilled than its been.)
My gayness has actually been a lifetime in coming to a head. I remember wanting
to look at men's cocks when I was a kid in the pool dressing room, but I was
afraid I'd get caught, and back then it was not as open as it is now. As I got
older, I began to masturbate, and really enjoyed it. And, then the older I got,
some of my friends in high school and I would experiment, but never very far, I
was still afraid. A college roommate and I got to the brink, but again nothing
happened. After we both married, I went to see him, and he entertained me in
his bathrobe and under pants, and came over and stood next to me. I turned
toward him, and my nose was only an inch from his cock; I wanted to grab it, but
again nothing. I knew I was gay, but still did the expected thing, married and
had kids. The first month of our marriage, I told my wife I was attracted to
men. She either didn't hear me or didn't want to hear me. When I drove by DFW
on the way to college, and saw jumbo jets landing and taking off, their fuselages reminded me of cocks, and I would get horny. Sounds weird, I know. But, still, nothing.
Finally, after the kids were grown and gone, the time finally came. I simply
got hornier and hornier, and new what I needed: I needed a cock. I found a
search site for gays, found a friend, and we met. He was so kind and gentle,
and loving. He had experience, I didn't. I was so excited I couldn't get hard,
but finally, kindly and gently sucking me, he orally brought me to the most
wonderful climax I have ever experienced in my life ("hard on, and all"). And,
he said my cum is sweet. The rest is history. My first experience sucking him
came a few days later -- the feel of his cock and the taste were wonderful as I
swallowed his cum as quickly as I could. I agree with the guy last month: "It's
a beautiful and natural experience." I, too kick myself for not following
through with it oh, those many years ago. I've had several experiences since
the first ones, and I am so thankful finally to be able to be me.
[M] I had just read the letter titled "adult onlet gayness" and didn't really think it was something I was interested in. I was over a friend's house and bitching about how my wife doesn't want sex as much since she went through "the change" and that she hasn't sucked my dick in maybe 10 years. Anyway my friend said it was the same with him and we were both talking about how we missed being sucked.
I told him about your site the the letter I had written. At first we both laughed it off but before I knew it we were nude in his rec room (his wife was not at home). First we just played with ourselves and then each other. After about 30 minutes we were both rock hard and we got into the 69 position and were sucked each other. I came first but continued sucking until I got his load.
We didn't talk about it and we got dressed and I left. I hope we will do it again. I never thought I would enjoy sucking a cock so much.
Updated 8/08 [M 63] A few years ago, I suddenly became gay. At least I was consumed by the idea of sucking a penis. All the rest of my life, I had been rigidly straight. But I didn't know how to find a penis to suck on various occasions. Feeding this urge were many internet encounters with other mid life guys, who were looking for some stimulation, other than from there now disinterested wives. So my gayness was by no means unique. Finally, I saw enough of a pattern that I began to call it Adult Onset Gayness. There should be some serious psychological examination of this phenomenon. Meanwhile, my craving for a penis to suck on, grew and grew. A good penis is no easier to find than a good woman used to be. But I found one on an old friend, and sucked and sucked and sucked to my heart's content. It even gave me it's semen, which I loved and swallowed every beautiful drop. Though the experience temporarily satisfied my urge to suck, leaving me with a week or so of complete calmness, the urge is returning stronger than ever. I would advise anyone who is entertaining the idea of sucking a penis, to put away a lifetime of misguided forced conformist revulsion, and just do it. It's a beautiful and natural experience. Fresh semen is even healthful, not to mention good tasting. Now I kick myself, for not having made the switch, decades ago.
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